**Tere mere saath ki ghariyan jeevan mein sabse badi hain (the moments we’ve spent together are my biggest treasure)
Tum hanste ho to lagta hai, saamne khushiyan khadi hain! (whenever you smile, I feel as if this is where my happiness lies)
These lines have been playing in a loop in my mind from the past many days, maybe from the day I had actually heard them. So much so that I have actually been singing them non-stop each time I sing to Pari or hum while working out.
Though something happened very recently that actually made me reflect on these lines with a clearer mind and it brought a sunshine smile to my agitated self.
In the scorching heat with mercury soaring to intolerable temperatures right from eight in the morning, life has become pretty difficult with regular power cuts. I was busy getting Pari ready after breakfast when mum spotted an advertisement that mentioned a walk-in interview. The position sounded just right for me and we decided to give it a shot.
I had only fifteen minutes to shower, get ready and rush to the venue if I wanted to give the opportunity a try. I have faced many interviews in the past and surprisingly, I was not in the least panicked or nervous even though I had no time to get myself prepared for the possible questions.
While getting ready I made up my mind to face the situation for sake of experience, to get a feel of the prevalent work culture (for I have never worked in the my home town and I was pretty sure that the experience would be world apart from what I have been used to in the past many years).
Finally, I faced the interview. All was going OK, till the moment came to explain to me what would be expected of me to do. Though it entailed quite regular sounding profit-motivated efficient work requirements, but they slyly held deeper meanings to the kind of practice I was needed to do. I wanted to question back, but decided otherwise for I would always have the power to turn down their offer if things didn’t suit me.
Just then, I was randomly questioned whether I had any children. The mere mention of me being a mother of a ten month old was enough to make the interviewer give me a look that clearly read that my interview was over. They weren’t keen on anything more (including my work-experience) beyond that point.
After a few hasty irrelevant questions in the following thirty seconds I was asked to leave with the assurance that I will hear from them soon.
I didn’t lose anything in the whole experience but definitely gained insight about a lot of things.
I am pretty sure I won’t be hearing from the organisation anytime in the recent future. The vibes of restlessness from the fact, that I was openly being discriminated (for I have actually worked in fairer work-forces over the years) did hurt me, but I still hold no regrets for I did learn a thing or two from this bitter first hand experience.
The whole point of discussion (in my family) following my interview wasn’t the discriminatory attitude but something bigger and graver. The organisation ( a private institution) wasn’t looking for someone on the basis of their work experience or educational qualifications, but someone who was ready to work ruthlessly to earn them maximum profit. Before you jump on to say there’s nothing wrong in it, let me add it involved absolute unethical practice something which my conscience wouldn’t allow me to indulge in, no-matter what may come.
In other words, being discriminated saved me the effort of turning down any possible offers if they were (are) made to me. I understand I need to work. I totally agree to the need for me to step out of the house not only for financial reasons but also for my own emotional well-being. But, unethical practice is something I am not ready to do no-matter how lucrative the offer is. I sincerely hope to stick to this resolve forever.
In short, this opportunity wasn’t meant for me and being discriminated only helped me make my choice.
** Lines taken from the theme song of the TV serial Bade Achhe Lagte Hain
The song on my mind: Dil Hai ki Manta nahin ~ Dil hai ki manta nahin