I have had a clear view of where my life was heading ever since I filed for divorce. The court hearings and preparations for the same made things get clearer with each passing day. In the last few days I faced the worst and was quite sure that things couldn’t get any worse.
What I am experiencing now is nowhere close to what I had imagined. I want to feel happy, relaxed, peaceful, content, grinning at my victory, proud of my farsightedness and many other positive notes. But reality is far from these.
I am feeling as if someone has punched me hard in my belly, creating a void that seems to have sucked out all vision, peace and reasoning out of me. I am feeling weak, dizzy, hurt, burnt and irritated despite the fact that this moment was long anticipated.
Slowly and gradually as the reality of being divorced is sinking into me, I am feeling a sense of strange loneliness grip me strongly. If I were to think logically, I have many people in my life and the one who has been legally detached from me hasn’t been around from a long time, but such are the games mind plays.
Though legally it is the end of all hurt, anguish and pain but, there are still countless things to be set in order. There is still a long way before the court’s decision can be put into action due to involvement of institutions and people in two different countries that are continents apart.
But still the major battle is won and the rest is just a matter of time.
When I try to look at it with a clear head, the stark reality is, that the end of my marriage has now been written in black and white, though it had already ended long back. Just an official declaration of a fact known to me from a long time.
The song on my mind:Zindagi ki yehi reet hai ~ Mr. India
Heartiest congratulations ME!! I cant tell you how happy I was when I read that the court proceedings are over and you have got what you wanted. I am sure you will feel back to you old happy self in no time. This is a big change, but dont get overwhelmed by the label of divorce, for you yourself know that the relationship was over long back. I am sure things will turn up now! yay! hugs 🙂
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Thank you MPB 🙂
Hugs!
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You made it ME! You have come out of the hell. I know, its kind of hard to believe and takes time to sink in, but you have what you waited for so long. The bad days are ending soon. Pari and you are going to be just fine soon.
You are the strongest person I have ever known and I am so happy for you ME. I am also so proud of you, for you managed to come out of it in one piece.
My prayers and wishes you with ME, take your time to heal now. I know Pari will distract you and give you peace.
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Thank you GB 🙂
Hugs dear
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Wishing you good luck on the legal/official beginning of a new chapter in your life.
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Thank you S for the much needed wishes 🙂
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Hey MyEra I am very very happy to hear this 🙂 As you said the major is won and rest is only matter of time. Now you can concentrate on better things in life for both yourself and Pari 🙂 All the best dear 🙂
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Thank you lifesong 🙂
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Glad that the legal battle is over!! 🙂 wish you Good Luck!! 😀
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Thank you CoralClassic 🙂
Hugs!
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Such an end is always the signal of a new beginning which is better that before ever… Hats off to your courage and determination!!
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I too am hoping the same PT
Hugs dear
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I know you just said you’re not feeling that happy but YAY. The court going in your favour is a big one. You sound like you need a holiday. Can’t you just take a week’s break and go somewhere cut off from the chaos to recharge?
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I wish I could get a holiday right away, but there is still a lot of things to be cleared before I can get there 🙂
The happiness and sense of relief is slowly setting in….so now I too am in a state to say, Yaaaaaaaaaay 😀 😀
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Hugs ME!! big hugs
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Hugs RM
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hugs to u dear.. u will get what u want.. and i know u are prepared for it..
take care.
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Thank you AM
Hugs dear
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U mean to say that majorly the divorce is thruy? Thank God!! I am sure the nitigrties will take time and they will be painful as well but now you have your life ahead of you plan it the way you want. Take it as a plain canvas and color it my dear!
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Yes, am Divorced. The papers are signed and all major formalities done 🙂
Seriously, I can’t thank God enough 🙂
I will….hugs!
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the major battle is won and the rest is just a matter of time
Yaay to that ME 🙂
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Yaaaaaay 🙂
Thank you dear for being there 🙂
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Many many hugs dear ME… you have been so strong all along! I wish that with time may you discover newer joys, cheerful things to laugh about, opportunities for your personality to grow and shine, people who will respect and admire you for the wonderful person you are, several victories to celebrate and rejoice and so much more from life!
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Thank you very much Kavs 🙂
Hugs!
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Many hugs ME! Glad to know the proceedings are over. It will take time to adjust to the new way of life but am sure with Pari at your side you will find happiness 🙂
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I too am hoping the same Maddie 🙂
Hugs dear
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Coming here after long time and this is indeed a good news for me. I am so happy for you and Pari. Tight hugs from me to you both..Take care and life is going to be much more beautiful..
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Thank you LF 🙂
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Hey ME! BIG BIG HUGS from my side-you’ve won a huge legal battle though mentally its going to take a lot of time for you to overcome all the sorrow and tough days you’ve faced. Though Im not able to comment on every post of yours, I’ve been reading and praying things sort out for you – I hope now things will atleast start looking better…
All the Very Very Best to you and little Pari…
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Thank you LLT for being there…it’s the prayers, good wishes and support from friends like you that I have reached so far 🙂
Hugs dear
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yay yay yay! so very glad for you, ME. Sending positive thoughts and best wishes your way for this new beginning. take care
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Thank you dear
Hugs
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ME finally its all over. come here and take my hugs.
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tight hugs sweetie 😀
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ME 🙂
Hugs. Life is no longer just another battle. Wishing you a beautiful life with Pari and family 🙂 lots of smiles and positivity and prayers and inspiration 🙂
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You are so right Kismi, the war is over and by God’s grace my life is now back to what it should be, normal living 😀
Hugs dear….l♥ve you!
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Congratulations and more power to you! Think of this day as an ultimate testament to your strength, grit and spirit. Celebrate it as the day the legal/judicial systems declared and established your right to your own life and happiness.
So happy for you! 🙂
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Thank you & tight Hugs TWC….I know you understand exactly what I am feeling at this moment 😀
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I shall pray hard that you have a much muchh mucchh better life ahead..so that when you look back.. all you would say is.. everything happened for the best..
Love & hugs!!
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Hugs Dew
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hey ME…congratulations! It’s great to know that the long battle you have been fighting has finally come to an end 🙂
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Thank you Gaori 🙂
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Getting to this point must be so tough and agonizing.
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It really was and I don’t wish that pain even on my worst enemy.
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