I know most of us can identify to this quote. I do agree to the immense control, power and wish-fulfilling ability money possesses. There is no denying that it can make the difference of life and death let alone of being happy or sad for a lifetime. But, this isn’t the point in question.
I am not trying to analyze the importance of the moolah or where you stand in terms of your financial status for I believe all these are very objective and are sure to vary from person to person. The real thought that triggered the following series of ideas was, I was thinking about how much money would make me feel secure and stress free in my current circumstances.
I had initially thought my reply would be the more the better for every extra cent means added security for the rainy day. But, the reality isn’t so. I have always been an escapist as far money matters go. I dislike the very topic and having to put in my energy in planning for future investments is something too much for my patience. The irony of my life is, the more I run from money matters the more I am forced to indulge in them.
I am among those rare souls who dislike worrying about money and love to invest and forget for a long time. I am neither a spendthrift nor someone who spends without surveying for the best deals.
I do have an amount of money pictured in my mind that can make me feel secure and content. If you are thinking it would be a large figure that could buy anything one can dream of, the reality stands that is not the case either. While looking for job opportunities, I am often tempted to ponder on this basic question.
I have managed to figure out a relatively not-so-big five digit (yeah just five digits) amount in my mind that in my opinion can keep me happy and fulfilled without yearning to make extra.
By nature I have always been quite satisfied with whatever money I ever had. Yes, I have worked in positions where I was paid ‘just right’ or say on the lower end of the paying scale for my qualifications, but it was never a point of concern for me. Neither then, nor today. When it comes to work, I always tend to feel that if the role is doing justice to my qualifications, salary is definitely never the basis of my accepting or denying the offer.
By saying so, I do not intend to declare that what I am paid has no bearing on my decision to choose a job. I just mean to say that I keep the pay-check a distant priority as compared to other parameters for I believe money tends to follow those who focus on work and runs from those who decide to chase it. My belief has only strengthened with time for I have experienced this happening in my life.
This brings me to another shocking discovery about myself. I seem to have no dreams of owning a big mansion or having the finest of silver or to travel around the world or even to become the biggest name in my field. I don’t know what’s wrong, but I seem to be lacking the fire people who make it big possess in their starting years. I am just content with where I am and all I dream of is to do my best. Everything I wish for seems to fit in my planned sum. Maybe, I am under-estimating the inflation or my dreams aren’t big enough.
I think the major put off has been the way money had tried to control my life, my marriage and my very existence. The way my money-hungry ex-husband has been the cause of immense pain in my life seems to have reinforced my dislike for worrying about money.
The only thought that gives me the said kick to get into action is the desire to excel in all I do. Though I am not a perfectionist, but I dislike being unprepared. Whatever work I do has to have my hundred percent and I will endlessly try to improve my performance till I get there, irrespective of the position, role and my paycheck.
I personally feel this basic clarity will help me stay sane in managing my finances to the best of my handling ability to ensure a safe and happy future for myself and Pari.
After a chain of confusing, contradictory thoughts I am glad to have reached a point of self-analysis where I can pronounce myself smart enough to know the exact amount that can make me live at peace without money woes of any kind. The best part of it being, that kind of monthly salary is very much achievable. It’s just the matter of the right opportunity and I am determined enough to make that happen somehow.
What’s money? A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what he wants to do. ~ Bob Dylan
The song on my mind: Keh doon tumhey ~Deewar