I have been gone from the blogging scene (again) for over 10 days and in these few days, not a single day passed without me wishing to publish a post or at least read my favorite blogs.
But as my broadband would have it, it has been dying out on me every few minutes. Despite lodging complaints the issue took around 10 days to finally resolve. The outcome was time wasted on tasks that usually are completed in matter of minutes, struggling with meeting deadlines, trying to send emails from my phone, just to end up goofing up or having them unsent for hours despite the urgency. This was because the 3G network too chose to ditch me.
Finally, I am typing this post in hope that I’ll publish it today.
In my mind money matters are an issue that have always held a controversial spot. No-matter how vital money is for our existence, our well-being and happy survival, I can never bring myself to love it enough to not choose small joys over it.
There is no denying that fulfillment of our wishes to a great extent depend on money we have in our purses, but still I dare to act otherwise. This has been my driving thought all my life, but recently, I found myself biting on work more than I could comfortably chew.
I have been over-stretching myself to accommodate assignments bending over to the extent that it started to hurt. Frequent headaches, spiked irritability, inadequate sleep and no time to read books have been some of the major side effects. But, since I was still able to fit in all the time I usually spend with Pari, in my head, I was doing just fine.
But, the increased episodes of headaches have become more of an annoyance. I strongly dislike snacking on carbohydrates instead of cooking or tossing a quick, healthy snack. But for the sake of sanity, I chose to take the shortcut.
Finally, two days ago, I decided I have had enough. I needed a break. Right away. I had to cut this mania of working till I cannot work an extra minute because the extra cash earned will never be able to buy me the lost peace, health or the small joys I have been letting slip past.
I know it is too premature to state any significant changes or improvement in my life (given it has been just two days) but in my heart I am already beginning to feel, how peaceful it feels to spare enough time for the things we enjoy doing, even if it means saying ‘NO’ to opportunities to earn extra cash.
I am not sure if I will be able to stick to this new-found resolve. Neither can I guarantee that I can smilingly bid adieu to extra cash forever, but as long as I can savor the small joys, I wish to do it. Life is happening now and it is only wise to live it to the fullest when realization has guided me towards the right way to do it.
What’s your stand?
Have you been finding enough time to celebrate small joys?
The song on my mind: Ye Raatein, ye mausam, nadi ka kinara ~ Dilli ka Thug