Yelling

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Yelling was a form of telling,

For parents in my dwelling,

A master-tool handed down over ages,

Blotching several life history’s pages.

I was passed on the baton,

With the confidence that can’t be forgotten,

It made me feel in charge,

Of my role & my child’s future at large.

It was meant to help me discipline,

My precious child,

Whom I knew from start,

had the spirit of the wild.

I didn’t want her to be tame,

I wanted to fan the flame,

Of passion,

To watch magic happen.
But I fell short of my resolve,

Fell in the trap,

Of following the norm,

Inflicted more harm,

By yelling,

Screaming,

Controlling.
Until my heart bled,

My child scorched,

In my tyrant ways,

I wept & mulled for days.
My anger was pushing her away,

That’s when I became wide awake,

From the slumber of blind following.

I took charge of regulating myself,

I could no longer blame the mess on anyone else,

I got to task

Of fostering connections,

Without any more tantrums.

I had to take the lead,

I was the one who had to plead,

Sorry.

I made room for mindfulness,

In my mind’s idleness,

The dance of anger had to stop,

I needed a lot of inside job.
The efforts are on,

Yelling is gone for now,

It’s return, I won’t allow.

Breaking habits is tough,

So am laying the turf,

Sowing seeds of new practices,

Because I believe,

The results will be miraculous.

6 thoughts on “Yelling

  1. Oh ME! I fell off the wagon:-( Its been 3 days I think. I think I just get hormonal around my chums. But it is no excuse. If I can control myself in the office then why not at home? Time for me to get back on the wagon. Sigh.

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    1. I have been in your shoes IY. For me it’s less under the influence of hormones but more under work stress. But gradually I am working at bringing about the change I have always wanted. May we both be the parents who never yell at their children.
      {Hugs}

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  2. I avoid yelling but honestly sometimes yelling makes the kid listen to their parents. And I feel yelling is in our DNA, our parents yelled at us, our grand parents yelled at our parents and we are trying not take this hereditary gene further.

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