What happens when the one relationship you’ve been working relentlessly on hits a rock bottom?
What happens when you choose to stand ground and refuse to be bullied into doing things against your beliefs?
What happens when in the midst of the above chaos, you find the answers to the many questions that have plagued almost all years of your existence?
What would you do if everyone around you starts seeing the boundaries you’ve drawn as potential threats to their existence?
I’m not sure about you, but I have had a tough time coming to terms with all this in the past month or so.
I seem to have retracted in my shell.
I’ve been with the task of educating myself to help handle this crisis phase without losing myself or my self-respect.
Calling this phase of my life miserable would be quite an understatement.
It is emotionally draining when every minute of your existence, your brain is worried about what lies ahead. What new drama is waiting to unfold?
But I have been hanging in there, not with hope but with the knowledge that destiny is putting me into hot waters to prepare me for the bigger tests that lie ahead.
I am a believer in the seasons of life.
“I believe in process. I believe in four seasons. I believe that winter’s tough, but spring’s coming. I believe that there’s a growing season. And I think that you realize that in life, you grow. You get better.”
~ Steve Sotherland
And this is the winter of my life.
The cold, bitter, harshness of a season that indiscriminately tests the mettle that makes us. The time that challenges us to answer, how strong are you?
I believe this discomfort, this trying phase of my life is the catalyst that shall make me grow on the inside.
I’ve decided that I’m not going to waste my days meandering about or marching under the banner of other people’s rules.
From here on I’m determined to change the situation and follow my dreams with more focus and intensity.
It’s all in my hands to choose to not let anyone steal my power, my self-worth or my peace of mind.
Today, I’m driven by a fierce desire to live fully, love openly, make a difference.
And that’s why I am certain that its the right time to let this out in the universe that I’m ready to take the leap that has been keeping me awake for the longest time.
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The song on my mind: The Train song ~ Gully Boy