I have always taken pride in calling myself an eternal optimist.
I am still an optimist but my stand at always looking towards the positive side has changed.
And may I add, it has not only changed but has drastically changed to something I had never earlier thought about.
I believe life is a 50-50 mix of positive and negative events.
Quite like the day and night.
Though, I would sometimes freak out at the idea that how could we survive if pain, hurt, anger, fear, frustration, death, suffering and despair would make up half of our lifetime.
But we do. Survive.
That’s because is all a mental construct.
It depends on what you interpret as a negative experience.
Because there are definitely a number of experiences that qualify to be in the grey area. Indifference, apathy, boredom, just to name a few.
It depends upon our perspective towards life in general.
And if you too believe in the 50-50 equation, let me tell you that it can also be quite relieving to realise that since the negativity is part and parcel of our human life, we can actually be at peace with it.
Or at least assume that to be a possibility, to begin with.
Though the truth of the matter is, until recently, I have been guilty of trying to be indifferent towards the very existence of negativity.
I’d think of it as something that the pessimists created. Like spun out of their imagination that eventually translated into their actions.
Something that existed beyond my bubble of eternal optimism.
But life doesn’t function that way.
And when I was pushed to reconsider my beliefs I got curious to explore what would happen if I stepped out of my bubble of positivity and decided to accept the negativity in my life, in its entirety.
Would doing so overwhelm me or set me free?
In a disturbing phase of my life, when I believed I had nothing to lose, I went ahead and made peace with my negative emotions. I chose to accept them. I decided to feel them in their true, raw form.
The feeling of disturbingly unpleasant to begin with.
I was white-knuckling all through the experience trying hard to resist reacting. Quite what I do day in and day out like a knee jerk.
Since I had made up my mind, I went ahead and bargained acceptance for freedom.
Freedom from the need to always feel positive all of the time.
Freedom from the need to be happy or to be chasing the elusive happiness in everything I did.
And guess what, doing so opened for me the possibility of approaching my relationship with the negative emotions in a much more positive way.
Yup, sounds confusing, perhaps paradoxical too.
But that’s exactly how it happened.
Looking back, I can safely say that it really doesn’t make any sense to turn our backs away from the negative emotions if they are going to exist and be a part of our life anyway.
This was when my outlook towards my anger, fear and despair shifted. A little at a time.
Gradually but surely.
It felt great to realise that sadness coexists with happiness, so I need not feel pressured to be HAPPY all the time.
I am okay to be feeling sad and disappointed at times.
It is perfectly fine to be angry and to feel it fill my system just like I allow happiness to wash over me.
The feeling is quite like watching the clouds fill up the room you’re sitting in and all the while you’re hoping to be drenched, you just feel the dampness but there’s no visible rain.
In the same way, sitting tight, fully aware of the hurt, anger or despair fill me up, it did provoke me to react but when I chose to stay put, I felt bruised without a punch, stressed out but no REAL harm was done.
It somehow took away the power I had given to the negative emotions.
I no longer spend hours worrying about my anger and finding ways to get rid of it from my life.
I no longer fret the idea that because I feel despair, anger and pain, I must be broken.
Unlike what the social media constantly presents to us the forever happy, perfect images of the people, it is NORMAL to be celebrating life even when it serves us unhappiness.
Simply because it is part of the deal.
This is exactly where my old self walks in.
Earlier I was constantly working against the tide to see the positive in everything that happened to me and in every emotion I felt.
While battling depression and anxiety, this desire to be always looking for the positive, trying to pep me up often turned into an energy-depleting exercise which would often leave me feeling lost and more miserable.
And despite my constant battle against the negative emotions, I would never feel happy in being the optimist I proudly called myself.
I tried it again a few days later when I was left with no choice but to do what I had tried once before.
To exist in the presence of negative emotions and watch my mind play with it like a new toy.
That fateful day, I did nothing.
Didn’t speak a word.
Didn’t grab my journal,
Didn’t turn to food, and
Didn’t even try to distract me with happy thoughts or affirmations.
Didn’t pick up my phone or the TV remote.
I just coexisted with negative emotions.
And guess what, I survived. Again.
After a while, those emotions floated away quite like the clouds surfing the sky.
It felt tough at the moment, but I realised that just like happiness wears off, sadness does too.
It is just a matter of being willing to experience negativity with acceptance.
Accepting negative emotions can help lessen their weight.
Getting mad at myself for worrying or telling myself to stop worrying only adds fuel to the negativity fire.
Of being willing to experience the negative emotions without resisting or attempting to change how I’m feeling.
It does get easier with every time you do this.
Quite like strength training.
The first time you lift a weight, the shoulders and the arms hurt. Badly.
But with each repetition, over time, it gets easier and easier.
The weight is still the same, but with practice, we develop endurance.
That’s exactly what I have been doing with my will power.
I am slowly building up the muscle of my patience.
I have been training myself to live through my hurt and anger (the two emotions that have caused havoc in my life for the longest time) with acceptance.
I no longer try to cushion these with affirmations or distractions.
I just co-exist with them.
And guess what the reward has been?
“The best way is not to fight it, just go. Don’t be trying all the time to fix things. What you run from only stays with you longer. When you fight something, you only make it stronger.”
I have begun to see where exactly these negative emotions stem from.
The root causes are slowly surfacing up.
I am more aware of who I am in the core and I am now at work in building myself up, despite the negativity that is an inseparable part of my existence.
I am no longer spending my energy fighting back the negativity that I really can’t wipeout of my life.
Instead of fighting it, railing against what I don’t want to be a part of my life, I am now channelling all my energy towards creating the life I want for myself.
Being accepting of the hurt, the pain is allowing me to change, to grow because now I’m more willing to pay attention to what is bothering me.
I’m no longer busy running away from these feelings.
This is my chance at learning to be more accepting of my life and myself in its entirety. To be willing to live every moment as it comes, willingly.
And I am not letting this chance slip past.
I am ready to live it with acceptance, compassion and open-mindedness.
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8 thoughts on “Are You Willing To Accept The Negativity In Your Life?”
What a beautiful post!! Embracing your self, all positivity and negativity, as a whole, is so difficult.
I really like the paragraph when you explain how you finally accepted and faced your negative feelings: I did nothing. No distraction. Not even food! Turning to food is so comforting. Putting the TV on to shut up our inner voices. You were so brave. Your post is truly inspiring.
Keep going, be whole, be yin and yang.
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Thank you, Sev 🙂
I feel it is not about being brave but being willing to accept life as it is and being curious enough to explore its unknown side.
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Thank you for your perspective. I do think we can also be too absorbed in ideas, words, and thoughts. The happiest people I know don’t seem to philosophize all too much. They are positive. But they don’t think about it much. They live their lives, work, have families, and talk about day to day events and issues as they come up. It’s like a person who wants to stop thinking about zebras. The harder he tries, the more zebras pop into his head. And if you worry about it, looking for ways to stop thinking about zebras, talk to others who can’t stop thinking about zebras, this could be a life-long process. So a lady, part of the group, gets interested in flying planes and bungy jumping, goes on jaunts with friends, and years later, she sees a zebra on television, realizing she hasn’t thought about one in a looong time. Nor is she interested in zebras any longer. **I think people can surround themselves with the very difficulties they find themselves. The happiest friends I know do not hang with negative people, if we can call them that. They just go on with their life.
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Welcome to my blog, dolphinwrite 🙂
Thank you for sharing your perspective.
I believe that happiness is an inside job. It is something that has to be found within ourselves. And this is why being at peace is one of the requirements of being happy. Simply being indifferent to the existence of the things that don’t align with our perspective or don’t serve us doesn’t make them disappear. It would be more like an act of turning a blind eye to their existence.
My question here is, can we turn a blind eye to the negative emotions like anger, fear, pain, envy, grief, etc?
Since they are a part and parcel of life, why should we constantly try to be indifferent towards them when we can, with practice and patience accept them and exist peacefully in their presence?
It’s a matter of choosing to be in harmony with the inevitable aspects of our existence to be willing to lead a more mindful, meaningful life.
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Think you have a good point. Just that the happiest people I know live in the present, handling day to day stuff. Those who keep trying to figure out the reasons for ups and downs seem to remain there. Of course, it’s different for each person. Some find their answers. Hope all goes well for you and yours.
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I agree the perspective can vary from person to person but the habit of living in the present to the fullest is sure to go a long way in helping one lead a fulfilling life.
As far discerning what the happiest people do, I can only say about me because how happy anyone else is, is purely subjective.
Wishing you the best 🙂
Having taken some time off, helping others, with the idle time, I’ve noticed current habits that have been there a long time, even to my young years. Seems what we haven’t dealt with in our youth keeps returning though we may disregard them, looking for the dollar in the yard which we lost at a store so to speak. I think those difficulties keep returning, perhaps it’s good, so we have opportunities to change, though change may not be the way we’re looking. Hmmm….
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