Cheeni Kum literally means Sugar is less. It’s a phrase used to represent lack of taste in the (sweet) dish or something less than perfect. This post is about my relation with sugar over the years.
- Sugar holds a very important place in my life. As a child I was a sugar-o-holic. Loved sweets like ants and my love saw itself transforming to my passion for baking for I loved to have a generous serving of cakes.
- The problems were never chocolates for though I loved them, but ate them in moderate amounts. The problem area was the amount of sugar I used to add to a cup of tea, milk or any sweets that I made.
- I have inherited my inclination for sugar from my mum who used to add 2.5 teaspoons of sugar in her cup of tea and loved snacking on sugary delights.
- Life moved on and I stepped in my teens. Slowly, slyly the desire to stay in shape and to cut down calories crept in and my love for sugar saw an epic decline to the extent that someone who always ate yogurt with sugar now started eating plain yogurt (no sugar or any other additive). I even indulged in sugarless tea for a while (around two years).
- My love for sugar changed to liking when my best friend in college who was also my room-mate walked in my life. She had a strong inclination for savory foods and never ate sweets except occasional ice creams. she would never give me company in eating sweets, hence my interest in them slowly declined.
- The last nail in the coffin of my love for sugar came the day my ex-husband stepped in my life. He was an extension of my best friend’s love for savory foods for he not only didn’t eat sweets but wouldn’t let me eat them either. Over the course of years, my liking for sweets and sugar came to a point that I find it hard to be tempted by the best of chocolates even when they are sitting in big boxes in my fridge.
- But, this wasn’t the end of my relation with sugar. The big boxes of Swiss chocolates I had brought for my mum still lay untouched in our fridge, for sometime last year my mum was diagnosed with Diabetes. She had scary blood sugar levels. Almost four times above the normal range and was asked to not even think about sweets let alone taste them. No one across the length and breadth of our family has ever had diabetes, so her alarming sugar levels came as a big shock to everyone.
- As time has passed, after many episodes of my mum crying like a baby just to be allowed to eat a few chocolates or have an extra-large serving of the cakes I bake, she seems to have learnt to stay away from sweets. But all these emotional turmoils only strengthened my dislike for sugar. I know it isn’t the fault of the sweets, but seeing the misery they send my mum’s way I can’t control my growing dislike for them. The other reason behind my dislike is the number of times I have been badly scolded by my mum just cause I refused to let her have those Swiss chocolates or to bake her favorite cakes.
- This is one of the major reasons I rarely bake cakes these days, except for birthdays. For I myself eat hardly a slice and I spend the next few hours/ days till the cake is over, worrying if mum would have sneaked out a big slice of it. So frosting are a strict no-no in my kitchen.
- If all this while you are wondering why haven’t we just finished off the chocolates or given them away. Well, my dad too isn’t very particularly fond of chocolates and since he has had a few very painful root canals done in his teeth he dreads them all the more. So the guests to our place have been very happily enjoying the chocolaty treats to my mum’s utter dislike.
- The onus of finishing the chocolates now rests on Pari who simply adores anything that’s savory but runs away from sweets. Though chocolates are a rare exception besides cakes, but that too she likes in very limited portions. Never more than three-four bites. It’s something rare but happens in my house all the time. Even now the chiller trays of both our fridges are overflowing with chocolates and no one even wants to eat them. I don’t mind eating a piece or two once in a while when Pari asks for it, else I think I will have to find a way of slowly gifting them without letting my mum find out.
- This post has been sitting incomplete in my drafts from over four months. If you are wondering that the nearing festival season gave me the needed push to complete it, let me share another secret about sugar in my life. Yesterday I saw the movie Cheeni Kum. It is among my all time favorite films. Having laughed to my heart’s content while watching it, I decided to let this post see the light of the day and be posted with a beautiful song from this must-watch movie.
The song on my mind: Jaane do na ~ Cheeni Kum