I am often told that I have been very brave in sharing my life, its private issues and many sensitive pieces on a public platform. When I come to think of it, a smile rises to my lips. Not because I feel proud on being considered brave, but because I started this blog with full realization of this fact.
In fact, my first post, which is also the about page of my blog talks about it too. Like anyone else I too could keep the dark shades of my personality hidden, I too could never speak of the troubles in my life or even if I would, I could keep the gory details to my self. It’s easy to present only the good, the strong and the rosy aspects of one’s life.
The trouble that kind of blog would pose for me was, I wanted to start writing a daily diary. Something that would register my life as it is in real. No hiding the frustrations, no soaking up tears to pose as a strong person, no airbrushed emotions. Pain, joy, hurt, bitterness, anger, innocence, everything in their true form.
It’s when you decide to let go off the curtain and expose your real self will you get a chance to see yourself in your own words. ~ My Era
I want to vent out my emotions through my blogs, but at the same time I wish to come back to these records from time to time to gauge my progress. To assess where am I heading in life, to smile at my changed self and to feel proud of have swum through the rough times.
This blog is a mission, it holds much deeper meaning in my life than just telling the world what I went through, who I am , what am I made of and what life made me decide to do in my circumstances. I sincerely wish that by sharing my life-story on a global platform , maybe someone, somewhere, someday will seek inspiration. It might help someone prevent getting stuck in situations like I have and find better, timely resolves to issues that can leave deep, painful scars.
I totally understand how many of my readers feel that I am going through mood swings every now and then. But the reality is, I register all of my negative thoughts so that my journey has all the emotions intact. I can see through life more clearly without defying that frustration, humiliation and anger were once part of my journey.
I feel, acceptance is the first step towards healing. Understanding one’s situation and accepting it as it is without any form of manipulation marks the beginning from where things can only get better. I am trying my bit to be honest and open to my own-self, hence I blog openly.
Quoting a famous line from the song Pyar kiya to darna kya ~ Mughal-e-Azam:
Parda nahin jab koi khuda se, bandon se parda karna kya! (When nothing is hidden from the Almighty, why try to hide from the people of the world).
The song on my mind: Pyar kiya to darna kya ~ Mughal- E- Azam